This week’s Five Minute Friday prompt is:
(kinda perfect for me right now)
Learning is on my mind 24/7 currently.
7 days into student teaching and I’m ready to call it quits, in a lot of ways.
I’ve had a migraine that just won’t go away since Monday. Stress all week about things out of my control, things I’m overthinking, things I shouldn’t be worried about.
Worried about how I’m going to teach freshmen anything about Romeo and Juliet when I can barely put one foot in front of the other right now.
I’m learning a lot. I’m learning about the ins and outs of being a true blue teacher– every detail (the good, bad, and ugly). I’m learning about freshman and how hilarious they are (and how they never stop talking). I’m learning the responsibilities of having my own class (in someone else’s class, which is just plain awkward).
But right now? I’m learning the most about me.
How I am under intense pressure left and right (hint: it’s not good).
How bad my mental health is currently (bad).
How much I want to give up on myself and this dream I’ve had since childhood. I thought I had it all figured out. I don’t.
Mostly? I’m learning about how much I have left to learn. About teaching… but mostly about myself.