This week’s Five Minute Friday prompt is… 

doubt.

GO.

I have rarely ever felt good enough at anything I’ve ever done.

That’s kind of a scary thing to say (let alone think!), but it’s true: everytime I do or say something, I doubt myself. I second guess my abilities (even when I know they’re good), my knowledge (when it hasn’t failed me yet), my faith (even when I see Him working in every thing I do). I am too much like Peter for my own good (maybe it’s why I like him so much?!?).

Especially in this season, when I have no utter clue what direction I’m heading, I doubt everything. I can’t make decisions because my brain goes down the worst-case scenario road and that shut my ideas down real quick.

The what ifs eat away at me, trying to make me less and less myself.

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And yet, where I doubt, Jesus has every assurance in me. He doesn’t doubt who or what He’s created.

He believes in me better than I believe in myself. He has faith in me more than I have in myself. 

He tells me-proclaims to me- that He has a plan. He has given me gifts and wisdom and power to do whatever the heck it is I’m supposed to do (still waiting on an answer on that one, Lord!).

He reminds me every day that He isn’t changing– He is constant, even when my life is shifting around me like a bullet train. He’s not going to stop believing in who He has created, either. His thoughts about me are constant, no matter if I believe them or not.

There’s no doubt in his heart of who I am. Why is there in mine?

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I leave you with this, which has been on repeat while writing this:

Great is thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
there is no shadow of turning with thee;
thou changest not; thy compassions, they fail not.
as thou hast been thou forever wilt be. 

Great is thy faithfulness!
Great is thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
all I have needed thy hand hath provided.
Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me! 

(I’ve been listening to the Sandra McCracken version, which you can listen to here!