five minute friday time! this time on time. 2 in one day, at least I’m consistent, right?

The week’s prompt: focus.

Today, I noticed something.

In class, I focused more on doodling on my paper than listening to my professors lecture. I just did not want to be there (another story for another day), so I focused my brain on what was next to draw instead of the topic at hand.

In Zumba tonight, I noticed how I was so focused on the next move or the next position that I’d stop what I was doing and turn to the teacher to make sure I knew what was coming next, or that I was doing things right. By doing that, I messed up. A lot.

Whenever I’m doing something in my schedule for the day, I’m always looking towards what’s next on my t0-do list instead of what I’m in the middle of.

I get so focused on what’s next or what’s coming up that I don’t pay attention to what’s right in front of me.

I’m so so bad about trying to plan the next ten moves in front of me when I’m still taking the first step of right now.

I want to control. I want to know. I want to figure everything else out before I figure right now out.

My focus need not be on tomorrow or next week. My focus today? Needs to be today.

Even if that kills the planner type-A person inside of me.

STOP.

I posted this on facebook a few days ago and my friend mentioned it again to me today:

basically I need it tattooed on my forehead. Or posted in my dorm room. Either/or.  I know everything will happen as it’s supposed to. I need not focus on what’s not happening yet, even if I really want to.

“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” Matt 6:34 (msg)