it’s been awhile since i linked up with my pals at five minute friday! I’ve missed this little writing family so much; Thursdays have been the busiest/longest day of the year teaching at my internship, so I never had a chance to jump in and write.
Now that summer is here and school programming is over (PRAISE JESUS), I no longer teach at night! All summer programming at my job is during the day (all. day. long. Jesus help) since it’s day-camp style, so my days end at 3. Which means I HAVE MY NIGHTS BACK! The night owl in me rejoices!!
The word for writing tonight is one that’s on my mind all day, every day lately:
In the words of Chandler Bing, could this be anymore relevant to my life!?
I like knowing what the future holds.
I like plans and the like, the whole schedule set out before me with no surprises. (I hate surprises.)
I spent a whole lot of my life thinking I had the future perfectly manicured to what I wanted it to be… and then not so much.
A man can plan and plan, but the Lord’s will ultimately prevails.
i’ve been reading James with She Reads Truth the last two weeks; one of the more well-known verses in James tells us about submitting to God.
Therefore, submit to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. (james 4:7-8)
The message version says it like this:
So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time.
I just love that. Let God work his will in you. Submit has always scared me (because #controlissues), but the idea of God working his will in me is eye opening, especially to someone trying to figure out her future and what she wants to do with her life.
I’ve been dealing a lot lately with getting my identity wrapped up in my career and my future plans after my internship ends in July. After quitting student teaching, changing my major, and realizing the one career i’d ever wanted was not in the plans for my future, I got tied up in this identity struggle of being just a teacher. Then I got into this internship where I’m, yet again, a teacher, and I got to wondering if being a teacher was the only thing I was to everyone. I was afraid teaching was the only thing I was good at. It’s the only thing I’ve really done, it’s the only thing I’ve been hired for, anyway, so maybe I should face facts and accept that this is the future I have (even though I really really don’t want it to be).
I know teaching is not what I want in my future, but for whatever reason it’s the only future i feel like I can have.
I want to be more than a teacher, dammit.
I let my job and my future job take hold of who I thought I was.
Slowly, ever so slowly, God is reminding me that who I am is not in the career I have now or next year.
Who I am is not my job or my calling.
I am not my job.
I am not my future.
Who I am is who He has made me to be.
I am a daughter of the God whose plan prevails, and who will work his will out in my life– if I lay my identities down and accept the identity He has given me.
I’m not just a teacher. I’m His. and my future is in his much more capable hands.
**I went over by like 5 minutes… it’s the first time I’ve done one of these in a year, people!
just wanted to add this little nugget from the she reads truth post from yesterday:
“Tomorrow could bring beauty; it could bring heartache. But as I’ve been reminded, even in my darkest moments, Christ holds me fast. Each moment is laced with His grace.”
No matter what the future holds, I am held by Him. And that is who I really am.
Throwback: Can’t say the phrase Who I am without singing this one… very loudly. So many memories wrapped up in this song. Ah, the 90s.
5 thoughts on “future (five minute friday)”
“Let God work His will in you.” Yes! This! Thank you for your gentle reminder. Loved stopping by. I’m your neighbor at #fmf. Have a beautiful weekend.
Jordan, wow…what a splendid post, and we have similar taste in music! And it is SO GOOD to see you here again.
I was a teacher…and coming to the end, I have found that if that’s how people want to define me (well, they don’t, but IF) I’m OK with it.
#1 at FMF this week.
You know Jesus was a teacher and I guess we all are at some point in our lives. I retired from a job of 43 years and now I substitute teach. It was a calling I knew God was leading me to in order to minister to students and be a light in the schools.
I bet you are a great teacher, and if not you and I know He will lead you where you should be.
I’ve always admired teachers. After all, Jesus, our Savior, was a teacher! I think that teachers who are also Christians reflect Him in the classroom even when they don’t/can’t share their faith. His fruit shines through them in their love and actions. It is unfortunate that teachers are often under appreciated and taken for granted.
Blessings to you as you walk in your calling and follow the Lord’s leading as you walk the path He leads you on whether it is teaching or something different.
So glad to see you back! We’ve missed you friend! Love your honest vulnerability. Your post also reminds me of Jason Grays song “Remind Me Who I Am.” God always reminds us that we are beloved children of God. I’m in the 96 spot this week.