happy fmf day! this week’s word:
hmm. this is an odd word for this week. but here goes it…
blessings are not always easy.
They aren’t always welcome.
They don’t automatically look like a good thing when you first see them.
blessing is defined as, “God’s favor and protection;” i think for me I always see blessing as synonymous with happy, cheerful things, when in all honesty it could be something hard and tragic and not fun– but the blessing part is how God uses these things to show us how He loves and cares for us.
2 weeks ago I had to make a decision I didn’t want to make– a decision to end my internship early (for a lot of reasons, but self-care was the primary one). The next two after I made my choice, I sobbed both at home, at work, and in my therapist’s office because I regretted it. But once the initial emotions blew over, I realized that this choice was going to be a blessing for me. It might not look like it in the moment of hurt and sadness, but it WILL be a blessing.
Two weeks later, I’m not 100% there yet–the transition hasn’t been the easiest– but I know I’ll get there.
A blessing isn’t always pretty wrapped in a neat little box of goodness, but it’s never bad– it is always for my good, and for my care. And from a God who loves his kids enough to take care of them, no matter what it looks like.
This is after the time went off, but wanted to add a line from Lisa Harper’s recent she reads truth devotional: “How—despite our proclivity to make huge messes—He is so completely for us.”
that might be the biggest blessing of this whole Jesus thing, y’all. He’s for us, messes and all.