Holaaaaa. It’s FMF time! I actually chatted this week. Victory!!
This week’s word:
Excuse yourself this Thanksgiving.
Excuse as in this definition of the word:
release (someone) from a duty or requirement.
(I always forget about this definition of the word).
Excuse yourself. Release yourself from the burden of having a perfect, picturesque Thanksgiving.
Release yourself from trying so hard.
Excuse yourself from doing so much for this holiday that you forget to enjoy it. Things will get done, and if they don’t, that’s okay too.
Excuse yourself this Thanksgiving, if you don’t enjoy the family time or it’s too much for you.
Excuse yourself this Thanksgiving if it’s not what you expect it to be, or what you want.
I dread Thanksgiving and other family-gathering holidays. They stress me out so bad. I feel like I have to perform– put on my fake “everything is fine and dandy” face and make small talk about my life (yes, i am 25 years old and live at home while pursuing a writing career, nope still not driving, thanks for asking family!). I have to hear comments about how much food I’m eating or what I’m eating. I have to sit through the ignorant political talk that hurts my brain and breaks my heart. I get bored playing on my phone while my family yells at football on the TV instead of actually being a family.
I’m used to it. Doesn’t mean I like it all that much.
Last year I sat at the table and ate by myself. Not by choice– because I got picked up late and everyone else had already eaten by the time I got there. Family had already left. Dad was too consumed in a football game to take me home, so I sat and played on my phone. It was absolutely miserable.
And this year, my dad won’t even be there.
I hope every year is different. I hope it gets better– and last year, i even tried to make things better with some ideas from my counselor. They failed.
After last year’s Thanksgiving, I’ve learned to release my dreams for this holiday. I’ve also released the trying so hard. Because I can’t change them. And I excuse myself this year from trying.
This year, I’m excusing myself. Excusing myself from the guilt of not enjoying this holiday. Excusing myself from trying to act perfect for my family. Excusing myself from not feeling the feelings of disappointment I know I’ll face when things are the same old next week.
It’s time to excuse yourself this Thanksgiving. If you enjoy this holiday and all that’s in it, awesome. i wish I could say the same. If you don’t: take heart. Give yourself grace. Excuse yourself from the table when it becomes too much. And excuse yourself from the expectations and hopes placed on this day, especially if you know they won’t happen. It’s okay. At least I’m preaching it to myself this year.
(this took longer than 5, whoops)
I’m a very thankful person for a lot of things this year, and as always, this community lands at the top. So grateful.
Audrey’s latest. Love the Celtic feel!