This week’s FMF post is a little late, but better late than never right? Finally got my laptop charger (praise the lord) so I’m back in action! Yesterday was my birthday so it was a bit too crazy to write. This week’s word: I’m kinda glad I waited– I got a different idea for… Read More play (five minute friday)
I believe God has everything figured out for my life. He knows my plans, my desires, my steps before I do. I really think Paul means what he says in Romans 8:28, “that in all things God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose.” He… Read More Uncertainty and the unknown.
happy fmf day! this week’s word: hmm. this is an odd word for this week. but here goes it… blessings are not always easy. They aren’t always welcome. They don’t automatically look like a good thing when you first see them. blessing is defined as, “God’s favor and protection;” i think for me I… Read More blessing (five minute friday)
it’s been awhile since i linked up with my pals at five minute friday! I’ve missed this little writing family so much; Thursdays have been the busiest/longest day of the year teaching at my internship, so I never had a chance to jump in and write. Now that summer is here and school programming… Read More future (five minute friday)
this weekend, I felt an urge to clean. Anyone who knows me is probably surprised by this, because I am the messiest person in my house (or any house… or dorm room… or any room). I tend to hold off on cleaning until I absolutely have to. Like, until you can’t see the floor in my… Read More spring cleaning
“Why is it so easy to look for help everywhere but the feet of Jesus?” I read that in my Lent devotional Thursday night and felt like I’d been punched in the gut. Ouch. I hate asking for help. I suck at it, if I’m being truthful. As I’ve written before, I’d rather be the helper… Read More he is my helper (and I am not)
“You are not good enough.” “You’re never going to get it right.” “That was awful. Why did you think it’d be anything but?” “Oh, that was definitely directed right at you.” “Everything is going to get messed up.” “You messed up, so you suck.” That comment was totally about you. “You are the worst.” “This… Read More against the voices.
“I just don’t want to feel so INVISIBLE!!” I tearfully said this to my counselor this past week. Towards the end of our session, it came out pretty much like word vomit– completely off the cuff, part of the inner dialogue of my brain that just came spilling out in a vulnerable moment as she… Read More invisible.
paradox: a situation, person, or thing that combines contradictory features or qualities. I’m pretty sure people with mental illness could be a study in paradoxes. One day last year I was chatting with my mom while running errands, and she asked me if the coming weekend was daylights savings. When I responded yes, she exclaimed, “oh!… Read More the darkness paradox.
Somedays I don’t know who I even am. For most of my life, I’ve lived based off the expectations of everyone around me. I’ve made my life decisions based on what other people thought. I listened to every voice around me but my own. I grew up surrounded by opinionated people. People who know better… Read More reclaiming me.